My
Grand Jury service came and went and I, sadly, did not find the
villain I thought would walk into the courtroom and lend a face, and
perhaps a voice, to this character I want to write.
I know
better than to force it, so I was hoping he'd insinuate himself in
real life by walking right into my day and smiling slyly. I imagined
I'd feel a slimy metaphysical disgust that made me shudder from head
to toe and want to scream, “Ewwwwww!” and run home to shower it
off my psyche.
This
did not happen.
There
was some research involving mythology and more about
nomenclature and language.
There was a lot of sitting around waiting to make justice. Do justice? Affect justice? Effect justice? Justify justice? There was a lot of sitting around.
I can
say that I am not hopelessly blocked: I was able to write a scene.
It is
an important scene because it's not a throw-away moment. This must
appear in the final work. It's a simple thing that moves one
character from one place to another – which requires little more
than standing, putting a foot ahead of another, and letting momentum
take its toll. But there is more to it!
The character is unaware it is undergoing a sort of transformation and in this scene the reader is given its first clue that something is afoot. Something evil, in fact. Or maybe just sinister, perhaps evil is too strong a word.
(Hmm, lies. These are lies!)
In
writing the scene, I was able to convey this, allude to the action
preceding it and even managed to add a moment of comedy.
The
scene, in short, is a success! The problem is that, while it brings
me closer to introducing the Big Bad, it stops just short. And
therein lies the question that grabbed me and owns me right now: how
much foreplay can you do with your reader before you introduce them
to the Big Bad?
Do I
hand out tidbits or do I push him out into the open, effectively
giving the reader a horrendous full frontal beast? Do I seduce them
and then shake them into the horror of what this creature truly is?
Or is he far less scary than I think he is right now, and will I be
playing the literary equivalent of John Williams' “Jaws”
leitmotif simply to find
later he is just shadows and mist?
The
problem is that he hasn't told me yet. I think that he lies... I'm
fairly sure he's still lying to me now! He is a shadowy form that
exists in this dark, foggy forest and he wants to pull me there. I
insist he can tell me from over there, I can hear him. He's trying to
trick me. I just know it!
I'm not blocked, I'm cautious. (You're welcome.)
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